Rick

Going through The Motions
One week into the Fast and so far I feel like maybe I'm just going through the Motions. I take time each day during lunch from playing Spider Solitaire and spend time to pray and read devotionals instead but I feel a half seriousness about my intentions. I feel like if I were having a conversation with God during this week it would have been something like:
Me: Lord, show me what you want of me through this Fast
Lord: Rick, I already told you but you were not listening
Me: But Lord I'm tired and the load seems too heavy
Lord: Rick, I have walked with you every step of the way
Me: But Lord, I'm struggling so much myself and I have so little to give
Lord: Rick, I've blessed you greatly and you have much to give
Me: But Lord, it seems so little and insignificant
Lord: That's why the fast is corporate - it's not about you, it's about the church
Me: But, but, but
I heard something on KTIS recently about how our but's can be too big and right now I think that may be my problem - my but is too big. I am going to try to be more intentional with my fast from here on out and starting with prayer. I have a prayer for our church I pray each Sunday on the way to church - I have a lot of time and so far it's not illegal to pray and drive. The prayer has roots from Exodus 3:12 - 18 and I plan to pray this prayer every day of the fast instead of just on Sunday.
Lord, Thank you for Cornerstone and a place to seek your presence. Those of us that have been here have found a place where we have experienced your healing hand upon us, where we have seen you perform miracles, we have heard the truth of your word spoken, we have praised you in worship and you have been faithful to lead us through many difficult times. We have grown to know you as an awesome, faithful and loving God. And Lord, we stand before you now with many difficult decisions and questions so Lord, I ask that you would fill our minds with wisdom to make the correct decisions, fill our hearts with love to show compassion to others, put your words on our lips so that we may speak the truth of your work and speak encouraging words to one another. Lord I pray that you would be so present among us that others would see this as a church that seeks the Lord, that others would come to this place to seek your healing, to hear the truth of your word spoken, to praise you in worship and to know you as a Mighty God who loves them. And Lord I pray that we would not confine you to the walls that make up our church but that we would walk with you into the cities, across our great country and into all nations to proclaim the truth of your word, your hope and your joy to all people. Lord we are your church, we are your people! Lord show us your Glory! I pray to my Father in Heaven by the Power of the Spirit and in the name of Jesus. Amen.