Day 4 Just a Trim Please

The fourth day of fasting. Hmmmm. . . . . Actually, I love to fast and pray. Call me bizarre but I think maybe it's just my small way of controlling my otherwise hectic and out-of-control life. I can honestly say I have rarely been disappointed. I have found that fasting and prayer has allowed me to see the hand of God in my life more than just prayer alone.

The challenge for me is always making it more than just a check on my to-do list and actually seeking a deeper relationship with God, trying to hear his voice, and finding the strength and courage to do whatever he says. For example when I take the time to ask God to fix a situation in my life, maybe a hormonal teenager, insufficient funds, attacking dust bunnies, or a bad hair week, if I actually listen, I'll hear, "What you really need is to work on your heart." There I sit thinking, "But I'm not getting my prayers answered!" In reality he's always right and my situation is always better if I just relax and let him change me. Which really never happens because I'm not the kind of person who just sits still and lets God change me. I tend to be like a small child getting a haircut who is 'only moving a tiny bit', insanely bothered by all the itchy hair, or 'just trying to help'. I gave My first grader a haircut this afternoon so this is all very fresh in my mind. There is really no way for him to help except to just sit still and do what I say! I too find it very difficult to just sit still, do what I'm told, and let God take care of things. So, I guess the control freak inside me likes to fast and pray because it helps me focus more on God than on my problems.

I believe God is always doing great things in our lives, but I believe that fasting and prayer positions us to receive more of what God wants for us, especially if we are open to what He wants us to do. I'm very excited about the things that God is doing and will continue to do as the people of Cornerstone corporately humble themselves to seek God's will.