Love rollercoaster

The fast is almost over and its been quite a ride, for me it started very slow like climbing that first big hill on a roller coaster and then took off down the hill and straight for a while, turning fast and sharp around corners then slowing to climb a hill and then down again. and i am just hanging on tight until the end. God has blessed me with a job where i am able to spend allot of time alone and that is when i am able to pray the most, some days its been clear (his voice) and some days... nothing. when reading the bible at night there were days i could just get right in and be like wow this is so great, and then the next was huh? i don't get it and i cant keep my mind from wandering. I have a plan to spend some time this Saturday out in nature praying and abstaining from food and just "being" with God i am looking forward to that as the ride comes to an end and i can hop off. I know that God has honored this fast and look forward to seeing and hearing all that has taken place in the church as a whole and in our individual lives.